#just can’t justify it rn
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PaRappa Japanese McDonald’s plush
#ugh need#just can’t justify it rn#y2k#y2k aesthetic#y2k style#y2k nostalgia#y2k icons#2000s web#old web#2000s#early 2000s#2000s internet#parappa#parappa the rapper
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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do you ever just cry while thinking about how tender creature is with lisa or are you normal?
#something about that peach ring proposal scene just gets me and the way he just looks at her with so much love#granted it could be because i’m really depressed rn but damn does that scene in particular get me#i’m so mad the site i usually use isn’t working for me for some reason rn#and i could go to my local theatre since they’re still showing it but god i’d have to get out#but also god i REALLY need to watch this film rn bdcause it unfortunately is my current comfort film/hyperfixation#and i can’t justify paying the digital price for it while i already preordered the physical copy#save me lisa frankenstein save me#somehow gotta make it to fucking sunday when i’m going to see it again#until then i’m just gonna stare at gifs and cry about how sweet they are#lisa frankenstein#meaghan rambles
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No bc fuck tim but it really really bothers me how people ignore his growth like he used to be an asshole and I’ll give tim Stans one thing: now he’s so so so stale but what I disagree with is that this staleness is bc nobody likes him like it’s in fact the exact opposite where everyone likes him so much they dont want to do anything. Even when it’s him surface level challenging Bruce it’s when everyone else is doing it too; but he’s still the backbone of the fam! Etc. and it’s so irritating bc him gaining more compassion and empathy even for people he doesn’t fw is so fun to watch and that’s why the captain boomerang thing was so out of character! (Not in a from the author way but in a tim wouldn’t do that and he and Bruce both knew it which is why it went down like it did. Same way dick killing joker was ooc; not in fanon sense but in a he would hate himself forever for this sense) and speaking of that it’s such an interesting mirror to Bruce who genuinely believes that everyone can grow vs Tim’s it doesn’t matter if they grow it’s not my decision to make like it’s the same but it’s not AND WITH CASS’ IT DOESNT MATTER IF THEY CHOOSE NOT TO GROW I WONT DO IT! like ugh. And anyways even when people acknowledge it they boil it down to “Janet and Jack taught him that the capitalist pigs that they are” like no. This is who tim was. Tim was the kind of guy who’d blame a dead kid for dying. That’s ok. Also Janet and Jack? Please reread anything involving them that’s not a fic like Jack had anger issues and they were both aloof at worst like relax.
#the Jack and Janet thing is both an understatement and an exaggeration but I don’t think anyone reads enough to care#some tim stan might get all pissy and be like ‘no look this is everytime jack yelled at him and boarding schools are abusive’ to which#and its like narratively that means nothing bc the tim you made up to justify the Drake parents you made up by blowing shit out of#proportion is also made up and if all of that was abusive there’d be smth to show for it besides ur homophobic Jack#too girlboss to care but still terrible Janet bc god forbid a woman have a personality from ur fics#anyways that’s also the reason I’m ignoring the council of spiders#well two reasons#first is that was just a moment to make tim look cool and did absolutely nothing for him or his character moving on#like at all#I’d say it fucked with his previous established dislike of killing for his own reasons#and while that COULD be interesting it’s not bc they didn’t do shit with it#and fanon doesn’t do fun shit with it either#nothing about how tim in his most manic state did shit he doesn’t want to remember shit he’d HATE other ppl for#just “’remember what I did to ur base Ra’s? mess with me again and see what I do next 😼’#like ok can you be real and genuine?#anyways I think#AND NOT IN A HATER WAY#Tim would benefit from being humbled#like genuinely I detest the world can’t move without tim running it but the idea that tim thinks that way is so good to me#and#I think next step being him realizing that’s not true would be a BIG push for his character#bc like I said tim Stans are right in the fact that he’s stale as hell rn#but that’s bc there’s nothing to say bc there’s nowhere to go! y’all want a tim action story where he shows off how badass he is reread#the Bruce quest and maybe it’ll remind you he’s not ceo lmao but anyways there’s nothing internal to say about him atp bc nobody wants to#say anything that’s not propping him up. same with Bruce! Gotham war was such a copout but it’s like ppl are saying he’s stale and it’s bc#god forbid he makes a lasting fumble. and I’m not under the illusion this is new I’m just saying it’s weird that fandoms not clocking it#anywayyys I really do like thinking about the No killing rule and how different it manifests for each perosn#like the way each distinct difference tells u so much about them#UGH ONLY SLIGHTLY RELATED BUT DUUUUUKE BEING LIKE IDGAF ABOUT GUNS LIKE UR SO REAAAL#anyways enough tim positivity for today FUCK THAT NIGGA!
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having a hard day for no reason (it’s cold, the grief does not end, etc) and i’ve just been sitting really angrily on the floor for like 3 hours painting a piece of cardboard absolutely seething feeling so fucking pissed off at like 20 people
#i can’t even drink bc it’s way too windy and frigid outside for me to want to walk to the corner store but it’s too close to justify#driving#this isn’t actually a problem i just want a seltzer rn#i also really want a treat of some sort but we have absolutely zero things in the house that are sweet rn#i spend 70% of my time sulking and it’s getting to be pathetic rather than brooding or edgy
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Slowly and heartbreakingly coming to the conclusion I may have to almost completely forgo dock diving on my pursuit to get Eevee her championship since conformation is eating up all my time and money :/
#this girl needs to get this stupid CH so I can do better sports already fr#I just can’t justify the prices of confo entries AND then the weekend after dropping $200 on dock diving#dog sports be cheaper challenge. give me a discount if I’m doing multiple runs/splashes/whatever per day jfc#fastcat should be $25 first run#and then $15 for the second#dock diving should be $25 for the first splash and hell id even take $20 per every other splash#8 splashes for a weekend adds up SOOOO fast ugh#don’t mind me; just having Sad Girl Hour rn#dogblr
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the urge to add hozier to my sapphic playlist is unexpectedly strong
#i’m not passing the bechdel test rn but it’s Hozierrr#can’t tell if it’s justified or if i just always want to listen to hozier
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i am experiencing emotions rn and idk what they are :)
#so i got laid off in march and i have not shut up about it since bc it was a horrible experience and i’m still upset about it#and quite literally the only place i wanted to work after that wasn’t hiring at the time but they said to check back in the summer#so i just started picking up extra shifts at my second job bc i’d rather wait on this place than apply to places i have no interest in#then end of april i get a call from this girl i met at my old job saying she got fired#we were super close last year and then our friendship got super weird and tense when she suddenly became my boss#and tbh i’m not at all surprised she got fired bc as much as i like her as a person she was not at all qualified to be running that business#but anyway we’ve been talking more lately than we have in the past couple months#and i was thinking our friendship could maybe go back to normal now that neither of us works there anymore#BUT now i’m feeling super weird like idk if i’m uncomfortable or annoyed or what i’m just feeling put off#bc the place i wanted to work finally started hiring a couple weeks ago and i applied and interviewed last week#and yesterday i got the job which i’m super excited about#and this friend just sent me a screenshot of her rejection letter for the exact same job at the same location#like am i crazy or is it justified to be weirded out by that??#why would you apply for the same exact job as me and not even tell me until after you get rejected#and i know she knows i applied bc i’ve been talking about it nonstop with all my friends#like i’m so confused#it’s not even about the fact that she could’ve potentially gotten chosen over me it’s just weird that she didn’t tell me she was applying#i’ve literally been talking about this job since before they were even hiring like as soon as i got laid off i said i wanted to work here#she didn’t get fired until almost 2 months after that so she wasn’t looking for a job until a couple weeks ago#so i can’t think of any scenario where it would make sense for her to just not mention this to me#idk someone please tell me if this is weird or not bc idk how to respond to her rn#lj.txt
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#sry I need to vent more abt my tattoo pain bc I physically cannot do anything productive rn im completely and totally incapacitated#can’t read anything beyond short posts or texts. can’t eat or move at all#tried to sleep through it so it would at least Be Tomorrow so I can get medical help. but the jolts of pain make me like Jump#hence me being sent home from work early today like it’s not even that I was complaining I was just flinching involuntarily so much#and was unable to work or function at all. thank god I don’t work retail rn I remember the pain of tattoo infections in that context#it’s so Abrupt it feels like I’m being stabbed or repeatedly bitten#literally trying not to scream bc I have a roommate. but he almost certainly hears me crying and saying ouch#which sucks bc I barely know the guy lol he has no context. At least on my drive home I could scream as much as I needed#literally would go to the ER if I could afford it and that sounds so dramatic bc it is#it doesn’t feel like it can wait. genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna get through the night#I haven’t slept in like 60 hours and I doubt I will tonight. but it hurts too much to even tell if I’m tired#and I don’t have time for this!! I have so much I need to be doing. I hate that the only way I can have Time is to be Extra Disabled#in a way that leaves me completely unable to do the things I normally can fight through despite burnout#and I was just at health services yesterday asking them to do insurance paperwork that they couldn’t do#it’s embarrassing having to be like hey I was just there but can I come back#I have Another tattoo infection but I pinky promise I take such good care of them#and my artist is like the best of the best too. it’s like it doesn’t matter what either of us does to keep me safe#and I know if anyone responds to this it will be to tell me to stop getting tattoos#but that’s literally like telling me not to get top surgery if I’m immunocompromised n might have recovery complications#both are equally important gender affirming medical procedures to me I’m not joking#and I hate always having to justify this whilst in agonizing pain. I hate answering the same things every time bc still no one believes me#I say this as someone who lives every moment in baseline pain that would have your average person writhing on the floor and I ignore it#this is truly unbearable if I hadn’t been through it a million times I would think it was life threatening#just needed to get it out ig. bc it’s all I can physically do. until health services opens in 12 hours#PLEASE let them have availability tomorrow bc i have literally no option on weekends#this is just. so upsetting and embarrassing. I don’t have time or emotional capacity for this#personal#mine#vent post
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i cannot express enough how damaging it is mentally and emotionally that i still live here 🤣
#purrs#the way everything is ALWAYS my fault! the way that my parents are gods who can never make any mistake or admit to wrongdoing and everything#they ever do is justified but then when i (a fully grown adult) also try to explain when i didn’t do anything wrong or when it’s not#actually my fault it doesn’t apply lol. the way i am asking for permission for things THEY SHOUKD BE ASKING ***ME*** for permission for LOL#the way i found out only recently (yeah.) that im still legally / financially a dependent 😍😍😍😍😍😍 awesome. lolololol. the way i can’t get out#of the quicksand until i get out of the quicksand but in order to get out of the quicksand i have to be able to get out of the quicksand 😻🙏🏻#delete later#btw i just finished my first homework assignment ive had to do in a year and 3 months and my first class is in 15 hours. what if i *** rn.#also it occurred to me the other day like. i have always thought of myself as selfish and imparient but also… these were things my parents#were telling me i was / treating me like i was as young as 3-4 years old as evidenced by the video tapes. and like. what if that’s not#actually how i was / am and everything i did and needed and do and need was valid and justified and what if all the bad things i believe(d)#about myself were / are because they told me that’s who i was and i was too little to know they were wrong. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯
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officially nobody in my family is coming to my chorus concert tonight 👍
#oh but what a fucking coincidence because they came to BOTH OF MY BROTHERS’ CONCERTS#maybe i’m being bitchy#idk#it just hurts that they went to my brothers’ stuff and they’re not going to mine#im kind of mad rn#even if i am not exactly justified#am i?#like…you came to my brothers concerts but you can’t come to my hour long chorus concert?#it just hurts that they make time for my brothers and not me#i’m being dramatic#ill shut up now
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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive
#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy#been feeling weird as hell these past few months#like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days#or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day#idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this#just thinking#meposting#I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying#I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult#I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.#whatever#I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that#dissociation#me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though#she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety#and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time#I’m so solid now#so stuck in the ruts of capitalism#fuck capitalism#I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled#sorry I love talking#and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing#I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school#bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude#I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time
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The nicewashing of Keyleth in tlovm, while pleasant from an actual entertainment perspective, is kind of annoying. Stream Keyleth has ugly anxiety, is obnoxiously self-righteous, and shows big time Karen tendencies. Her voice is also much softer and gentler in the streams rather than the fun shrill and shout-rasp thing Marisha would do. A bit less accidental murder too. I won’t exaggerate and say she’s barely the same character or anything, but there are massive differences, maybe more so than with any of the other PCs.
Scanlan is a bit less competent and sexual harass-y (and they are foreshadowing Bard’s Lament heavily), Pike’s more around and has overall a more defined character, a lot of Vex’s nicer moments are toned down to make her a little more guarded and jagged, Vax is a bit less of a prankster, etc., Grog’s pretty spot on tbh, and I don’t particularly like Percy so my opinion may be biased, but he’s fine. They fucked around with the plot so he’s a bit more possessed; he insists he’s fine in the show where in the stream he knew he was getting pretty wild and asked the party to put him down if he got too dangerous.
But I don’t think Keyleth has been judgy or pushy once in the show, and those are some of her defining character traits in the early stream. She also spends less time wildshaped, doesn’t seem to have an issue with organized religion, and her anxiety is much cuter. She’s not freaking out and threatening a magician, she’s blushing about whether or not Transport Via Plants will work. Keyleth feels much more… conventional? I guess? in the show rather than the kind of bold, uncomfortable character she was in the stream. It has been a while since I watched c1 though, so I might be misremembering literally all of this and no one should listen to me about anything (even though I’m always right).
(Sidenote: I actually like watching Percy, I think Tal plays him with a lot of nuance and personality, but then whenever Tal talks about him outside of the stream he’s like, “actually he’s just a bad person with no redeeming qualities who thinks he’s smarter than everyone else and is a dumb traumatized bitch who didn’t go through any meaningful character development until the last episode” and I find that obnoxious and don’t think it actually reflects how he played in game so that sours him for me a bit. I know it’s Tal doing his bit, but I enjoy all of his characters more the less he talks about them.)
#critical role#tlovm#none of this is actually a criticism#tlovm is my favorite show rn and I love show Keyleth#I’m on mobile and it looked like Keyleth was about to autocorrect at the end of that last tag and I can’t see it cause it’s too long#hopefully it just got capitalized#it’s missing abrasive good-hearted anxious wreck representation#oh and they played up the disagreements between vex and Vax a bit in the first season#vax always had kind of a hard time communicating with people#but I don’t remember it being such a focus with vex during the briarwoods arc#cr discourse#the last tag just because people get fucking weird about this show me obviously included (I’m right and justified tho)
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everyone who says i complain abt my d*d too much look away rn 🤪
#michelle speaks#my d*d is sososo evil i really just hate him so much u cannot even imagine fr#my mom has been having a really bad health issue for half the day today where she seriously needs to go to the hospital bc#she’s been in severe pain for hrs & my d*d has refused to take her & said she is making it up & a bunch of other bs he makes up in his head#also it is not just refuses to take her it is more so will not let her go period. at all.#& legit the last time this happened my mom was literally abt to die like FR before he gave in & took her & he still had to be forced#& yet once again he STILL goes ahead & insists she’s making it up or it’s not actually that bad or w/e tf#and says oh this is actually a problem for HIM bc she makes his life sooooo hard#i’m like. oh i can’t stand him. u know i like to have a laugh but when i say i literally hate this man so much. i am so serious.#like yes he’s fun to make fun of but he is seriously so evil oh i just hate him. & my mom & my brother r like oh he’s not evil blah blah#IDC!!!!!!! idc what reason they have to justify it from him i do not care!!!!!!!! i need a dart board w his face on it RN!!!!!!
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BTW I WONT BE ABLE TO SEE BARBIE FOR A WHILE SO DON’T TELL ME ANYTHING THANK YOU💖💋👙🎀⛱️💅👠👛🫧💃🕺
#personal#barbie#barbie movie#barbie spoilers#anti spoilers#I just can’t justify spending money on a movie rn💔#hope you all have a wonderful time!!
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Did someone send me an ask about Su She? And did I answer it? Cause it’s uhhhhh gone…
#i can’t find it in my tags#but tags are broken#and my memory is not the best atm#i just want to know if i am justified shaking my fist at tumblr rn
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